meaningful conversations

conversations
- plenty, all the time, playing, random, helpful, distracting, painful, senseless, funny, stimulating, connecting, plain, necessary,

but meaningful ones
- needed, rare, felt, cherished.

Thank you is all i can say.

my own

ac room
lying down staring at the ceiling- trying

no more
maggie, old magazines, newspapers, work documents

19 degrees
garam garam, glossy page three celebs, garfield/calvin, scribbling random thoughts
polished bowl, bikini football glamour, aspiration, overambitious

tried again

not troubled
am at my best
giving myself time (for what is still a mystery)
thinking about my own self (not about the others that comprise of me)
being in my own space, my own world (not sharing it with everyone, with anyone)

doesn’t bother me
doesn’t bother me at all.. being possessive of my space, my thoughts, my life, myself

i am my own at 1:34 am

achievement

reveyelution

One day..

One day, as I headed home..
I reached a transformed home- transformed to an interesting space

3 unknown men- staring at me as i approached an unlocked door

2 more- at different heights - splatting cement on the ceiling and the granules raining on their heads

Several more- spider-like humans.. sprawled up the walls colouring my world for me

I eagerly walked past them concentrating on a single white closed door.. A door i wanted to get on to the other side of

Behind this white door was the world i seeked- familiar, warm set-up
A place which had- my things.. my people.. my world

I looked up, took a deep breath and smiled
- I had reached home

4:27 am

silence, stillness, sleeplessness

silence.. namaaz, howling of the dogs, an occasional flight,
stillness.. rickshaw engines warming up, the watchman's lathi,
sleeplessness.. diluting colour of the sky, three lit rooms in the opposite building,

silence, stillness, sleeplessness, alertness, peacefulness...

alertness.. flashes of the past, curiosity of the dawning day,
peacefulness.. moments of truth, connection within

silence, stillness, sleeplessness, alertness, peacefulness...finally sleep.