Ji Leh Apni Zindagi

Bollywood has always known to capture deep human behaviors 

Ji ke Apni Zindagi- DDLJ is something I feel for 7 days every 2 weeks.

Chemo sucks the hell out of me every 2 weeks. The pre tests, the anxiety, the full day of treatment and the next three days of the tourist visa to Hell takes away 7 days every 2 weeks.

The other 7 days.. the rebellious me takes over.. unnecessary errands, indulgent eating, bars where I sip sweetened colourful mocktails or straight up expressos. I indulge myself like there is not tomorow. 

Ji rahi hu apni zindagi

undependable independence

2 am

2:00 am, mall lights already off

Unable to identify if either of us really managed to get some sleep. but i know for sure we are both wide awake now.

A speechless routine- stepping out of bed, reassuring, acknowledging eye contacts, a sense of "knowing"

Ghar ki Kheti

Blessed with good hair

Experimented the good hair

Flaunted the good hair

Abused the good hair

Lived the mantra of Ghar ki Kheti hai.. ugg jaayegi

Feel cursed as the crop fails

Desperate measures to conserve whatever can be

Considering hiding the consequences

Weep as I accept

Balancing the Karma with Cancer